Inevitable life...

It's been a year since i updated my last post. Reading back that post made me feel sad. Everything that been bottled up is flowing out through the tears.
It is good to have poker face. I can hide my feeling with happy face even i'm sad, hurt, sick, mad or any kind of feeling.
I know it's better to let it out but my personality cannot do that. And then i ended up hurting and crying alone without realization.
I know i got friends to calm me but i don't want them to worry me. They have their hardship or happiness around them.
Even i'm crying out loud in front of them, it won't change anything. The sadness in my heart won't fade away. I just can say that "I'm fine. Don't worry about me.".
To those who read my post, please think it as my sharing thought. Keep it as a secret. Thank you...

I'm happy...
I'm cried...
I'm fine...

"lingering pain in heart"

life...

it's being a while since i wrote my blog.
suddenly had a thought of updating my post.

along this road, experience a lot of event.
happy...
sad...
angry...
stress...

everything that i came over still hunting me back.
uncertainty...
blur...

everything i faced, i kept it inside my heart.
no matter what i say, think or do, it's my decision.
even i'm hurt...
even i'm smile...
even i'm angry...
even i'm tension...

"heart" - it will always remember all the scar that been done everyone...

bored in hostel..

thought 2day got class but ended up no class...

suddenly cancel.... whn shud we got proper class since tis week many lecturers r hving courses around sch??

only can say "patience".... haiz... feel like i hv many things 2 say but cnnt spilled it out.... 

forgot ord.... nvm at least i still can keep moving on.... 

"Sometime we need patience in order 

to keep our self moving on"

d angriest time i never hv b4!!

how dare u!!
dare 2 say evrything u wan w/o thinking...
u thought u understand/noe me tat much??
u r totally wrong abt ur own thoughts...
u dnt hv d right 2 judge me in any way!!!
say tat i dnt care abt my own result...
c ur own result 1st!!!
u cross my limitation...
u never challenged me b4...
plus underestimate my ability & effort...
u r ntg compared 2 me!!!
你~~~自不量力！！！

u INSOLENT!!!
u SCUM!!!
u IMBECILE!!!

"think before you act or speak..."

that's the moral value for today.

1st post in poly...

haha... long time din update my blog.... busy wif my life....
1st step 2 get closer 2 my future....
nw... enjoy my hot oat n biscuit...
as i revise 4 our 2mrw's final 4 our moral edu....
haiz... we thought moral edu dnt hv final....
crazy.... ok la... tat's 4 nw...
my update only till here...
nxt update mayb after final...
bye 4 nw~~

"Stress maybe is a method to keep our effort ongoing

but at the same time it also will make us lose"

new place... new life... new xperience...

wow... ord go 2 new place 2 xperience my new life at kch.... at last, my path 2 future is getting bright... but still not confirm yet... hehe..
walao... last few days r vry tired.... woke up early... full schedule.... got rest time but short... wan 2 faint liao... bcoz of those activities, my right leg in pain again... nw ord recover othough it will comes bck again din careful enuf...
how's ur life, guys?? it's being a while since i update... lazy 2 update liao... plus tat time dnt hv my lappy at my side... hehe.... i'm ok at here... but sum matter pissed me off.... stupid.... talking tis matter made me angry again... dnt wan 2 say it anymore... ok... i juz stop here thn... feel annoyed liao... bye...

annoyed

damn it... tis is ur own matter... y shud i hv 2 go along wif ur planning??? i juz helping my fren 2 ask tis matter.... u juz pull me deeper n deeper....

keeping rubbing salt on my wound!!!

splashing oil on fire....

u never learn ur lesson.... how dare u.... i ord gv u my fren's num... but still order me 2 pass tis msg 2 my fren... u vry SMART lor... vry PRETTY...

juz msg her or call her is enough liao... tis is ur matter!!! my heart being stabbed by ur blade...

U R NOT THINKING MY FEELING...

u still said u got freedom 2 say anything.... u imbecile!!!

juz b grateful 4 wat i told u....

dnt insult me wif tat kind of altitude...

u ord crossed ur line..... think their feeling b4 u act...

preparation.... T.T

haiyo.... hvnt start my prep....
oways last min... whn we enter U hv 2 do so many things ma???
damn it.... medic checkup....
print things.... photocopy.... passport pic.... 2day saw my timetable.... T.T
BI.... BM.... IT..... entrepreneurship.... basic drawing 4 game.... basic of multimedia.... TITAS.... ==
faint lor.... btw, wat is TITAS?? after i google it, it said "tamadun islam & tamadun asia"
apu.... double faint..... haih.... i dnt wan 2 study history thing.... it make me wan 2 kill myself....
but... thr's no way 2 xcape....
2mrw must do prep liao.... n buy hp.... ^^

it's not gud 2 do things at last min...

lazy girl....

d most happier day!!!

2day juz a normal day...
going 2 wrk like oways...
morning briefing b4 open store...
suddenly...........
no electricity...
lol.... all staff r going dwn 2 ground floor....
help 2 open store without electricity...
i.... bcum traffic lite....
hahaha.... coz i got torch lite on my hand...
lighting 4 customers so they can buy things...
thn got electricity n gone again.... thn again n again....
finally bck 2 normal....
bck 2 wrk at my department....
wrk till rest time....
lunch time.....
eat eat eat.....
suddenly i received a call frm my sis....
my sis said "u apply wat courses in ipta(spm)?"
i replied her wif everything i noe...
thn she said tat she ord check ipta 4 me n my bro....
last nite she got tell me tat ipta's result will comes out 2day....
so she can check it.....
walao.... she said I DIOK IPTA!!!!
ah.... i cnnt believe it...
speechless.....
GOD did bless me....
thx so much....
i omost cried....
tears of joy....
:')

bad or gud...

it depends on luck n effort....

b grateful wif all u got...

=)

woah.... 2day is april fool..... got morning briefing la.... dnt noe wat lies ahead 2day.... damn it.... watever.... YESSS!!! 2day oso my fav anime's birthday..... SAKURA!!!! happy birthday 2 u..... ^^

"everything gonna be alright..."

updating...

it's being a while again.... nth special happens in these days..... feel bored... wrking time..... oso bored.... how i suppose spend my time??? i hope i can continue study at better place.... GOD.... plz let me enter uni.... juz let me get those study thing's application.... pray hard 4 my better future.....

"everything is possible if u gv it a try...

pull urself 2gether..."

once again... ==

happens again?!?! haih... really happens again... last few days(saturday again).... customer ask my num AGAIN... wat d hell is going on??? my supervisor said she never encounter it since she wrks thr 4 whole 2 yrs... BUT i juz wrks abt 2 months + ord got customers wan my num.... sot jor lor....
haih... dnt come anymore la.... i wan 2 change my life BUT can i start frm my study 1st?? leave d love matters bhind 1st.... speaking of which, stpm's result came out liao... walao.... i word 2 describe my result....
TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!
2 all my frens, dnt ask again.... juz noe tat my result is vry bad 1.... no nid 2 nag 2 find out my result.... i feel stressed whn i think abt it.... haih... nid 2 apply college 4 sure.....
ok la.... it's too much 4 me 2 flash bck..... till here...

whoa.... unexpected event!!!

it happens only few day ago... tat day is saturday.... juz a normal day... going 2 wrk... bla bla bla..... i wan 2 tell u guys but too tired 2 update....
hehe... tat event occurs during nite time.... i din realize anything at all.... i serve all customer tat nid help.... busy busy busy.... at tat time... a customer ask me abt other size of tat clothes.... thn i reply him.... i think tat time was around 9.30pm....
tat customer was wif his frens.... they r shopping vry long time... until our supermarket wan 2 close liao.... they got walked passing me.... nth happens.... after a while.... tat customer suddenly called me.... he tell me tat his fren wan 2 make fren wif me.... can gv him my hp num ma....
walao..... SHOCK!!! i reply him by saying ''NO''.... he said if cnnt gv hp num, can make fren ma??
i still say ''NO''.... after tat, i walked away.... i thought he n his fren will go away liao... who's noe tat he ask my supervisor abt my hp num.... ==
thx gudness tat my supervisor dnt hv my num..... but he said gv his fren's num 2 me... i din took it.... whoa... i never thought tat will happens..... y did he wan 2 make fren wif me??? which part i attract him??? ==
never believe.... ok la.... nid 2 hv my sleep liao.... 4 further info, i will tell u if u wan.... BUT only 4 my frens tat noe my num.... i cnnt update my blog everyday.... so sms me if u wan furter detail... bye 4 nw...

continue?? busy~~

woot... long time din update my blog again.... it's being a while.... whoa... many thing occur tis day...
my wrk... CNY....
haha... i will continue wrking.... y?? coz after wrk at thr 4 a certain period, feels fun wif other wrker n ord used to d environment thr..... if i resign, 2day will b my last day... lol.... dnt say me la.... my frens wan resign.... u noe wat they said?? tat position vry hard.... wan 2 hv fun during CNY..... ==
watever they wan la.... tat's ur own decision....
erm... tis few day will b busy..... all ppl hving prep 4 CNY.... hehe.... i will hv a marathon at my wrking place.... busy busy..... if i off or recess, tat person will suffer oso... wakaka...
whn CNY's eve, i will wrk full day.... my supervisor said we, chinese wrkers hv 2 hrs 2 hv reunion dinner....mine de is frm 5.30-7.30pm...... cnnt off tat day coz many customer will come.... thn on day 1, 2 n 3 of CNY, i hving off day.... actually we only off on day 1 n 2.... i ask my supervisor 2 replace my off day 2 day 3 of CNY..... tat's much better than off 2 days nia....
so..... 2 my frens, i hv limited time 2 hang out wif u guys.... free time frm day 1-3 o.... hurry up n set ur schedule... 1 of my fren ord set liao.... still got others oo.... ~
hahaha... tat's all 4 nw.... till nxt time....

tired...

whoa.... start wrking straight away after exam.... haih.... lazy liao...
hehe... after wrk a month thr, i quit liao....
coz waste too many petrol oo...
better dnt wrk.... wrk so hard but still waste many petrol.... my salary will b used in paying petrol again....
haha.... long time din update my blog liao.... it's being a while since last time... i think abt a month n above liao....
how r u, my reader??? hehe....
2nite i can blogging coz 2mrw i'm off.... so nice 2 on9 n hv fun at home... compared 2 wrking.... haih.... nth 2 say lor.... ==
since i'm wrking, my appetite is not gud.... dnt noe y like tat de....
feel wan 2 eat but juz eat a little.... wrking life is too much 4 me.... BUT.... tis will happens in future....
INEVITABLE......

STPM...

finally d moment of fear is here....
facing d final exam...
my sch's life will over after tis exam....
haih....
hope i can get all subj full pass...
wish me luck...
wisdom... still in my mind....
dnt fly away....
GOD..
guide me till d end...
struggle 4 future...
all d best 2 all my fren during stpm...
gambateh... XD

PS: i wont b login during tis period.. leave msg at chatbox... thx u... ^^

exam's result...

whoa... got a little improvement nia... not a big deal... haha...
but i still like my f5's life better... many joy n tear btwn classmate... vry miss tat time... XD
whn i think it bck, i still consider my hardwrking during f5 is better compared 2 f6... coz it's a lot easier than f6... plus got closer frens bside me...
so gud 2 b wif them... 5B class is totally rock!!! hahaha...
but nw it's crucial time.... stress mode!!! stpm!!!
haih... cnnt escape anymore... hv 2 face it liao....... T.T
GOD....
gv me strength 2 overcome tis obstacle....

apu... ==

interview again.... haih... din hv a gud sleep... ask me same thing again... juz a little differ.... blood type.... O blood can receive wat type of blood? O... AB blood can receive wat type of blood? O, AB, A n B.... AHHHHHHHHHHHH..... i 4get 2 say AB... ==
thn... bla bla bla...
i hope tis time get it.... if no, i dnt noe wat 2 do anymore.... apply poly?? college?? study at college costs a lot of money... haih.... ipta?? i dnt think i will get 1 of it... my confidence.... less liao... haih...
juz following any path rite nw... no other choice... xcept MIRACLE happens...

dream... birthday... time flies...

it's been a while since last time i on blog... hehe... many thing happen without knowing... i hv dream d day b4 my birthday...
again..... tat dream surely made me happy.. but at d same time oso sad...
i hope it will comes true... although it juz a DREAM... still... it's better than nth.. hehe...
after tat day, my birthday.... so many ppl wish me happy birthday.. thx u so much 4 ur greeting...
hv a usual birthday again n again... celeb wif family, homemade cake, eating 寿面... no fren ask me out... i'm hoping sumday they will gv me a surprise party 4 me..
mayb i think it's too much 4 tat...
hehe... juz ignore me... it's been like tat for 19 yrs... i'm used 2 it... hehe... feel wan 2 cry by saying things like tat... how pathetic i am...
2 all my reader..... juz keep it btwn us... i juz wan 2 xpress my feeling thru tis blog... coz many thing hv being kept inside my heart... cnnt xpress 2 any1...
tis bcoz i juz me... tat's my personality....
i hope my life will change 4 better... stronger will...

stress...

it's being a while i din update my blog... hehe... since last month, my shoulder feels heavy.... so many stress on my shoulder... haih... bsides tat, many thing happens too... it's too complicated breathless n stress.... my health getting bad... my cough n headache come bck again... at nite, i fell asleep vry fast.... is it juz a sign of being tried?? stress?? wat was it?? haih... nxt week gonna exam liao.... arghh... rite nw i only can say is ''i hate schling!!''. hehe... although schling is not a bad thing but sumtime it made me breathless.... tat's remind me abt a song called ''breathless'' by Shayne Ward... haha... i heard tis song frm a drama... vry funny drama.... ok la... gonna log out lor... till nxt time... sayonara....