tired...

whoa.... start wrking straight away after exam.... haih.... lazy liao...
hehe... after wrk a month thr, i quit liao....
coz waste too many petrol oo...
better dnt wrk.... wrk so hard but still waste many petrol.... my salary will b used in paying petrol again....
haha.... long time din update my blog liao.... it's being a while since last time... i think abt a month n above liao....
how r u, my reader??? hehe....
2nite i can blogging coz 2mrw i'm off.... so nice 2 on9 n hv fun at home... compared 2 wrking.... haih.... nth 2 say lor.... ==
since i'm wrking, my appetite is not gud.... dnt noe y like tat de....
feel wan 2 eat but juz eat a little.... wrking life is too much 4 me.... BUT.... tis will happens in future....
INEVITABLE......

STPM...

finally d moment of fear is here....
facing d final exam...
my sch's life will over after tis exam....
haih....
hope i can get all subj full pass...
wish me luck...
wisdom... still in my mind....
dnt fly away....
GOD..
guide me till d end...
struggle 4 future...
all d best 2 all my fren during stpm...
gambateh... XD

PS: i wont b login during tis period.. leave msg at chatbox... thx u... ^^

exam's result...

whoa... got a little improvement nia... not a big deal... haha...
but i still like my f5's life better... many joy n tear btwn classmate... vry miss tat time... XD
whn i think it bck, i still consider my hardwrking during f5 is better compared 2 f6... coz it's a lot easier than f6... plus got closer frens bside me...
so gud 2 b wif them... 5B class is totally rock!!! hahaha...
but nw it's crucial time.... stress mode!!! stpm!!!
haih... cnnt escape anymore... hv 2 face it liao....... T.T
GOD....
gv me strength 2 overcome tis obstacle....

apu... ==

interview again.... haih... din hv a gud sleep... ask me same thing again... juz a little differ.... blood type.... O blood can receive wat type of blood? O... AB blood can receive wat type of blood? O, AB, A n B.... AHHHHHHHHHHHH..... i 4get 2 say AB... ==
thn... bla bla bla...
i hope tis time get it.... if no, i dnt noe wat 2 do anymore.... apply poly?? college?? study at college costs a lot of money... haih.... ipta?? i dnt think i will get 1 of it... my confidence.... less liao... haih...
juz following any path rite nw... no other choice... xcept MIRACLE happens...

dream... birthday... time flies...

it's been a while since last time i on blog... hehe... many thing happen without knowing... i hv dream d day b4 my birthday...
again..... tat dream surely made me happy.. but at d same time oso sad...
i hope it will comes true... although it juz a DREAM... still... it's better than nth.. hehe...
after tat day, my birthday.... so many ppl wish me happy birthday.. thx u so much 4 ur greeting...
hv a usual birthday again n again... celeb wif family, homemade cake, eating 寿面... no fren ask me out... i'm hoping sumday they will gv me a surprise party 4 me..
mayb i think it's too much 4 tat...
hehe... juz ignore me... it's been like tat for 19 yrs... i'm used 2 it... hehe... feel wan 2 cry by saying things like tat... how pathetic i am...
2 all my reader..... juz keep it btwn us... i juz wan 2 xpress my feeling thru tis blog... coz many thing hv being kept inside my heart... cnnt xpress 2 any1...
tis bcoz i juz me... tat's my personality....
i hope my life will change 4 better... stronger will...

stress...

it's being a while i din update my blog... hehe... since last month, my shoulder feels heavy.... so many stress on my shoulder... haih... bsides tat, many thing happens too... it's too complicated breathless n stress.... my health getting bad... my cough n headache come bck again... at nite, i fell asleep vry fast.... is it juz a sign of being tried?? stress?? wat was it?? haih... nxt week gonna exam liao.... arghh... rite nw i only can say is ''i hate schling!!''. hehe... although schling is not a bad thing but sumtime it made me breathless.... tat's remind me abt a song called ''breathless'' by Shayne Ward... haha... i heard tis song frm a drama... vry funny drama.... ok la... gonna log out lor... till nxt time... sayonara....

d moment of truth....

at last...
d fateful day will comes soon... i'm so nervous....
i get it or not???
tis matter is too crucial 2 me....
plz... God...
help me 2 face tis matter...
i nid Ur strength...
i juz nid one more chance...
i dnt wan anything anymore...
juz tis time...
juz tis moment...
juz tis hope...
my future....

continue my journey with stress...

ord 2 weeks after start schling... nw is d time 2 study hard... but in my heart i still waiting 4 spa... keep thinking abt it... haih... nw i oso dnt hv any inspiration 2 write poem... it's being a while i din wrote a poem... hope can write it whn my inspiration comes... i will post my poem in here n u may comment on d poem tat i write... ^^ tat's all 4 2day... till nxt time...

wow...XD

haha.... last nite i had a nice dream.... i dream abt spa... haha... it said "congrats..... u got spa...'' hahaha.... tat's a wonderful dream 4 me... i hope in reality i will get it.... MUST!!! whn i thought bck, i oways dream abt d result b4 cames out... all dream i had really bcame true.... juz a little part of d dream is not true la.... but i'm happy wif everything i got.... although d dream juz a prediction, but it vry crucial 2 me too.... last nite tat dream gv me sum confidence.... i hope d feeling tat i hv frm dream will come true... god bless me.... pray wif my hardest.... AMEN....

on d line of life n death..T.T

mou sukoshi... mou sukoshi....
y my life oways like tat???
nid 2 suffer a lot of pain....
bcoz it's 4 our future...
we nid 2 pay our cost...
nw i depend on other ppl...
sumbody..........
plz go 4 other application...
so i can get it...
maktab...
jpa...
matrix...
watever application u get...
i will pay d cost on d nxt life...

bright or dark future???

lucky or unlucky...
nobody noe abt it...

effort...
we can achieve wat we wan...

compulsion...
nth can achieved but only sorrow...

path...
tat must b chosen by ourself no matter how it costs...

Journey-Angela Zhang

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
oh to you

XD

hahaha.... i cant stop laughing.... juz nw i drive van 2 fetch my sis... vry funny xperience.... at 1st i drive vry normal until at meranti's traffic lite... wakaka.... whn i flash bck, i juz cant stop laughing... if u r d passenger in d van, u oso will feel funny... u noe wat happens ma?? i make d van 失火 for 3 times.... apu.... i make it b4 turns red lite... but d car bhind me cant make thru coz ord red lite liao.... i think d driver bhind will b vry mad lor.... hahaha.... it is better than accident... hehe....

Return of my big sis...

my big sis finally bck frm kch... haih... clean up my room again... juz like last time my 2nd sis come bck... nw 3 sis in same room... arghhhh......... d space is small la.... another nag frm sis... tis n tat... haih.... juz let it b... u noe my personality... dnt disturb me... n oso my dad... forcing me again n again... dnt b like tat la... it not ur responsibility 2 choose my future... i noe u wan me 2 get better edu n future but rite nw my f6's life is terrible... i got new fren n hv fun wif new fren but f6's life is not suitable 4 me.... i made my mind since f5... i being carrying a lot of stress since i enter f6.... i had a lot of headache tat time.. all i thought during f6 is run away frm f6 by applying many form... maktab... spa... n even ipta... i really dnt wan 2 study f6... hope i get spa... it is must 2 get it.... no matter how it costs.... so plz god bless me till d end.... juz 4 tis time....

welcome 2 my blog...

welcome... welcome.... haha.. actually i got blog at hotmail... but i delete it... wakaka... i got create account using blogger b4 but i cancel it ord... nw i'm bck again... creating blogger's account... watever... i stop here 4 2day... till nxt time...