dream... birthday... time flies...

it's been a while since last time i on blog... hehe... many thing happen without knowing... i hv dream d day b4 my birthday...
again..... tat dream surely made me happy.. but at d same time oso sad...
i hope it will comes true... although it juz a DREAM... still... it's better than nth.. hehe...
after tat day, my birthday.... so many ppl wish me happy birthday.. thx u so much 4 ur greeting...
hv a usual birthday again n again... celeb wif family, homemade cake, eating 寿面... no fren ask me out... i'm hoping sumday they will gv me a surprise party 4 me..
mayb i think it's too much 4 tat...
hehe... juz ignore me... it's been like tat for 19 yrs... i'm used 2 it... hehe... feel wan 2 cry by saying things like tat... how pathetic i am...
2 all my reader..... juz keep it btwn us... i juz wan 2 xpress my feeling thru tis blog... coz many thing hv being kept inside my heart... cnnt xpress 2 any1...
tis bcoz i juz me... tat's my personality....
i hope my life will change 4 better... stronger will...

stress...

it's being a while i din update my blog... hehe... since last month, my shoulder feels heavy.... so many stress on my shoulder... haih... bsides tat, many thing happens too... it's too complicated breathless n stress.... my health getting bad... my cough n headache come bck again... at nite, i fell asleep vry fast.... is it juz a sign of being tried?? stress?? wat was it?? haih... nxt week gonna exam liao.... arghh... rite nw i only can say is ''i hate schling!!''. hehe... although schling is not a bad thing but sumtime it made me breathless.... tat's remind me abt a song called ''breathless'' by Shayne Ward... haha... i heard tis song frm a drama... vry funny drama.... ok la... gonna log out lor... till nxt time... sayonara....

d moment of truth....

at last...
d fateful day will comes soon... i'm so nervous....
i get it or not???
tis matter is too crucial 2 me....
plz... God...
help me 2 face tis matter...
i nid Ur strength...
i juz nid one more chance...
i dnt wan anything anymore...
juz tis time...
juz tis moment...
juz tis hope...
my future....

continue my journey with stress...

ord 2 weeks after start schling... nw is d time 2 study hard... but in my heart i still waiting 4 spa... keep thinking abt it... haih... nw i oso dnt hv any inspiration 2 write poem... it's being a while i din wrote a poem... hope can write it whn my inspiration comes... i will post my poem in here n u may comment on d poem tat i write... ^^ tat's all 4 2day... till nxt time...

wow...XD

haha.... last nite i had a nice dream.... i dream abt spa... haha... it said "congrats..... u got spa...'' hahaha.... tat's a wonderful dream 4 me... i hope in reality i will get it.... MUST!!! whn i thought bck, i oways dream abt d result b4 cames out... all dream i had really bcame true.... juz a little part of d dream is not true la.... but i'm happy wif everything i got.... although d dream juz a prediction, but it vry crucial 2 me too.... last nite tat dream gv me sum confidence.... i hope d feeling tat i hv frm dream will come true... god bless me.... pray wif my hardest.... AMEN....

on d line of life n death..T.T

mou sukoshi... mou sukoshi....
y my life oways like tat???
nid 2 suffer a lot of pain....
bcoz it's 4 our future...
we nid 2 pay our cost...
nw i depend on other ppl...
sumbody..........
plz go 4 other application...
so i can get it...
maktab...
jpa...
matrix...
watever application u get...
i will pay d cost on d nxt life...

bright or dark future???

lucky or unlucky...
nobody noe abt it...

effort...
we can achieve wat we wan...

compulsion...
nth can achieved but only sorrow...

path...
tat must b chosen by ourself no matter how it costs...